[02 Feb 2005|08:49pm] [ music | I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business ] I can't remember much from this week so far, but I'll try just for you. Monday was kind of lame. Bets didn't come to school, so I was pretty bummed. It was the first day of Economics. Was incredible boring. My teacher likes to blab on for 80 minutes straight. The best part of all this is that I have the same teacher on the same day for sociology. I'm so excited. I don't remember if I did anything afterschool on Monday. I don't think I did. Yesterday school was okay because Betsy was back at school. I think I'm dropping cinimatic litteracy so I can leave after 2nd block ACE days. That would be pretty sweet. After I got home from school I tried finding some way of going to Bristol, but noone wanted to go. I've been snowboarding twice this whole season. This is really depressing. But whatever. I hung out with Jeremy and Dan and this dude Jeff. Was pretty fun. I don't have anything to do tomorrow. Betsy and I might hang out. I hope we can. It's our two month thing a ma bop. Nothing to get too worked up about, but I'm pretty happy the way things are working out. Friday I have to work until 8, which really sucks. I was really hoping to go to the Farwell/Verona show at the teen center. Once again I miss out on another show. I don't even know what to say for myself. And since I'm really gay... Post anything that you want (in comments), and post it anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love -- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say. You can have fun with that. Goodnight post comment

[26 Jan 2005|09:59pm] [ music | Say Anything ] I just realized that my 18th birthday is in like two months. I feel like I'm getting really old for some reason. Do I act like a senior in high school that's about to turn 18? I highly doubt it. I feel like I'm really irresponsible and act childish sometimes. Maybe it's all in my head? I read a friend of mines Xanga site just a few minutes ago, and it really made me think. "Regretting is denying, and denial is pain. Growing up makes you think a lot more about what you’ve accomplished so far in life. It nurtures and matures your soul." These words couldn't be any more true. They're words to live by, and I think I should start thinking this way. If I keep worrying about the past and regrets and what not, I'll never be able to be truely happy. One thing that's been really uplifting lately is having a sense of security. This recent sense of security is thanks to my amazing girlfriend. I know I've been talking about her a lot lately, but it's only because I can't keep my mind off her. Oh, and the Say Anything album is rediculously good. Check it out. It's called 'Is A Real Boy' Goodnight everyone. post comment

[25 Jan 2005|05:11pm] [ music | Elliott Smith ] Today has been so lame and boring. The only good thing that's going on today is band practice that I'll be leaving for in a few minutes. I've done nothing all day except plow the driveway and take a shower. I was hoping to hang out with Betsy after her midterm, but she went sledding with Josh. We were going to hang out after she got home, but that fell through. Oh well, whatever... I guess we'll hang out on Friday since I have work tomorrow and band practice again on Thursday. I'm getting a new dog on Wednesday. A one year old golden retriever. Should be pretty exciting. That is all. post comment

[24 Jan 2005|02:43pm] I suppose I could talk about this past weekend, and let you know what's going on. It was boring. I don't remember what I did on Friday. Saturday I worked from 7-1. After I got out I hung out at home for a while. A while being 5 hours. I talked to Jeremy online at around 6, and decided we would hang out with Tom Zenns. He informed me that Tim Knapp was comming as well, so natrually I was pretty stoked having not seen him in a long while. He came and got me and we then got Tom, and then headed to Greece to pick up Tim. The night was hillarious. Jeremy dropped me back off at around 11. Sunday I didn't do much either. I worked from 12-6, and came home to find out that I couldn't hang out with Betsy. Sort of bummed on that, but oh well. I just got back from hanging out with Tom and Jeremy again. Was fun as always. I'm hoping to talk to my girlfriend. We were supposed to go to the mall...or something. But she's probably already left. Meh. Tomorrow I have band practice. Our show is on Sunday at the Penny Arcade on Lake Ave. It starts at 8. I hope maybe a couple of you could come. Wednesday I have to work from 3:30-7:15. Thursday I'm hanging out with my dad. Then band practice. Friday I don't have to work. Maybe I'll hang out with Betsy. Saturday I have to work from 7-1. Then the show. Oh, and did I mention I don't have to go to school for the rest of the week? So awesome. And that's my schedule for this week. I'll update if interesting stuff happens between now and Saturday... post comment

[23 Jan 2005|09:36pm] For some reason I've been reflecting on summer and I'm thinking that I miss it a whole lot. I'm anticipating the warmer weather a ton now because I'll finally have someone nice to be able to enjoy it with. These past summers haven't been that exciting at all. A car would make this comming summer better also. It's really time to save. No more taking money out of the bank. I'll end this random entry with part of a Mineral song... And happiness is just a dream or so it seems It's something that I can never see And I just want to lay my head in your arms And bleed awhile... post comment

[21 Jan 2005|11:07pm] This girl is pretty awesome...I like her a whole lot. 3 comments|post comment

[21 Jan 2005|08:45pm] My moods have been changing irraticly lately. There are points where I can be really mellowed out and quiet, and not want to talk or anything. Other times I'm just plain upset for no reason. Sometimes I want to punch people in the face. And then sometimes I'll have energy and won't mind doing stuff. I have no idea what the hell is causing all these sudden changes in my behavior and feelings. It's getting rediculous. Maybe I just have emotional problems and don't know it. I've also realized that I am at a loss as to what is going to become of me after I graduate. I have no plans. No ideas even. It's really scarry. All I do lately is sit around and hang out with my girlfriend. I have been making an honest attempt to get stuff done for the second quarter, but after next week, it's back to sitting around, and probably more hanging out with my girlfriend. Now that I think about it, I don't even know how my girlfriend can put up with my moods changing all the time. If I'm getting annoyed with myself, I can only imagine how she, and even everyone else can deal with it. It's like I'm a girl with her period or something. If you DO get annoyed with me, don't hesitate to just smack me in the face. Maybe that will straighten me out a bit. That is all. post comment

[19 Jan 2005|06:43pm] Things are going better since the last time I wrote. Me and Betsy worked things out you could say. School and everything else is going just fine. I've got a lot of work to do before the 2nd quarter is up, but it'll get done. Work is becoming really lame. Tops needs to get their shit together, or I'll be leaving really soon to find another job. I'm still trying really hard to not spend money so I can buy a new car. But I highly doubt I won't be driving again until like...Spring or Summer. But I can't really blame anyone but myself for this. For some reason I've been listening to a lot of like...drum and bass stuff along with all the indie rock I listen to. I especially like it when I go snowboarding. Strange. I'm in the process of downloading: Aarktica - No Solace In Sleep The Album Leaf - A Lifetime Or More American Analog Set - Late One Sunday & the Following Morning Del Tha Funky Homosapien - Future Developement Guided By Voices - Bee Thousand: The Directors Cut Iron And Wine - Our Endless Numbered Days Owls - s/t Saturday Looks Good To Me - Every Night Tortoise - It's All Around You Les Savy Fav - The Self-Starter Foundation Don Caballero - American Don Joan Of Arc - How Can Any Thing So Little Be Any More? And as far as hip hop/drum and bass stuff goes...I've been listening to artists such as... A Tribe Called Quest De La Soul Common Dilated Peoples Dj Premier Gangstarr Jedi Mind Tricks J5 Mos Def The Roots M.F. Doom Abstract Rude Atmosphere Del Tha Funky Homosapian Latyrx Blackalicious Haha...Yeah it's sort of weird, but I don't care, I can get into it sometimes. I suppose that'll be all for today. Have a good weekend! 2 comments|post comment

[17 Jan 2005|01:22pm] [ mood | Frustrated ] [ music | The Get Up Kids ] Relationships, and most other things having to deal with a deep amount of emotion always seem to find a way of falling through for me. Whether it's my fault or not. Life for me is just a repetitive cycle of ups and downs and I still haven't figured out a way of dealing with it. One week I can be perfectly happy, and have the impression that things are going just fine. The next week, I find myself searching for that very same happiness and satisfaction from the previous week. All I want is for things to work out for me for a while. Is this too much of me to ask? Probably... This is all I have to say for now. 2 comments|post comment

[09 Jan 2005|09:21pm] [ music | Les Savy Fav ] I hope everyone's weekend went well. Let me tell you about mine... Friday started off the weekend pretty nicely. After I got out early at quarter after 1, I went to this kid I work with Mark's house, who happens to live right down the street from my girlfriend. We hung out, made chicken sandwhiches, watched Larry the Cable Guy, and played Madden 2005. After Betsy got off the bus, I walked to her house. We went in the hot tub, took a walk, ate pizza, and 'played' the sims2 for a while. Hanging out with her is always a good time. Saturday I went snowboarding at Bristol. I got there around 3:30 or so and left around 9:30. I did some sweet nose presses on the box, and a couple 180's. Nothing too hard as it was my first time back on the slopes in what's seemed like forever. I was going to attempt some 50-50's and boardslides on the high rail, but I decided I'd wait until next weekend. After we got back, me and my friend Jon from Spencerport headed back to his house for the night. We watched the rest of the 4th quarter of the Jets game. Pretty exciting game if you ask me. They won 20-17 in overtime. Mawesome. Then we went to sleep. My dad picked me up from his house thismorning at 8:30 and took me straight to work. I worked from 9-3 and it went by so slow. After I got home, I was hoping to hang out with Betsy, but that didn't happen. So I went to Blockbuster and rented Collateral. It wasn't that bad. And basicly that's been my day so far. I just downloaded Les Savy Fav - Go Forth. And I really like it. Time for some sleep. Goodnight <3 post comment

[03 Jan 2005|07:43pm] [ music | Owen ] Bleh. Having to go back to school sucked. I had gym with Betsy first block, which was alright. Boring and stuff. I had art second block... I left my portfolio at home over break, which was really smart of me...because I had a self portrait due. I always fuck myself over in that class. Two lunches in a row is getting boring. My studyblock teacher asked me where I've been, and he said that if I don't start comming, he'll write me up. So lame...I guess I'll start going so I can sleep for an hour. P.I.G was boring too. Today was just really bland. Whatever. I haven't been in a great mood since I got home from school. A few things on my mind that I don't have the energy to write about here. I went for a walk to clear my head, but it didn't work. My mom still isn't home, and I had to find myself my own dinner. I wish someone would've taken up my offer to go grab something to eat somewhere. Oh well. This week is just going to go by so slow too. I have to attend my sisters vollyball game tomorrow with my father. Just wonderful. It would be better if I had someone to hang out with there. My girlfriend has ski club tomorrow after school, so her comming is out of the question. I'll just have to endure it by myself. Maybe Wednesday I'll hang out with Betsy... Thursday I have to work from 3:30-7:15...and then I'm going to band practice. We'll see how that goes. Friday I have nothing planned. Maybe something will happen...who knows? I'm anticipating Saturday. First day of ski club. If Tops is going to be lame about me not being able to work Saturday afternoons/nights...then I'm quitting. I'm getting pretty fed up with that place as it is. I have no patience to deal with the managers and other people anymore. I'm done ranting. Goodbye. 2 comments|post comment

[31 Dec 2004|09:02pm] Another one of those impulses to update this thing... Lets reflect on this year, shall we? This year went by rediculously fast. A lot of cool things happened. A lot of lame things happened. I graduated 11th grade. I got my license at the age of 17. I crashed my car...making my newly aquired license a waste. I found a job. At Tops. I traveled 300+ miles on a greyhound bus by myself to see my brother in Boston. And after an extensive search for a girlfriend, I have found one that beats the pants off any other girl that I've talked to in a while. I've made a TON of new friends, but I don't get to see them all that often. I'm in a new band. I'm doing well in school. Christmas came and passed, and I got a lot of neat shit. All in all, I suppose this year hasn't been that dissapointing. Doesn't really feel like the new year is soon arriving, but I guess it's time for a fresh start. Wooooo. That is all. Hope everyone has a safe and happy new years. post comment

[24 Dec 2004|01:16pm] Things have been going great lately. The last few school days before break went by quickly, much to my surprise. I'm doing well in my classes for the most part, which is also kind of shocking. Things with me and Betsy are going wonderfuly. We hung out yesterday after school, which was fun. I have to work today from 3-6:30, which is pretty lame. Oh well. Afterwards I'm going to my grandparents to see my dads side of the family. Then tomorrow is of course Christmas. Pretty excited. That's all I suppose. Hope everyone has a nice day tomorrow. post comment

[16 Dec 2004|07:40pm] [ music | Ghosts and Vodka - Precious Blood ] Today was lame. I got to school, and got breakfast like I usually do. Freaking knocked orange juiced over and it all went on my pants. Let me tell you, I was thrilled about this. So Betsy gave me a pair of sweatpants from her gym locker, which I wore all day. Because my mom sucks and wouldn't bring me a new pair of pants. All day though, her friends wouldn't leave me alone about it, and I wasn't exactly in the mood to deal with that. But whatever. I guess they thought it was all in good fun. I'll probably end up laughing about it tomorrow. Art was lame, and because I haven't finished my acrylic painting yet, I'm failing. Then lunch and study block were boring. Government was pointless. The group I'm working on to do this project, doesn't do jack shit. I left after that class. Sat around for an hour and a half, and got ready for work. Went to work. Really lame. I made 50 dollars this week because they never schedule me, even though I ask them time and time again to do so. So I'd like to gave a big fuck you to Tops for being awesome. Thanks. Tomorrow better be better than today. 1 comment|post comment

[12 Dec 2004|09:42pm] [ music | Daphne Loves Derby ] This weekend was pretty solid, all in all. Like I said, Friday I went to the varsity basketball game with Mike Cat. It was fun. Saturday I hung out with Betsy after my sisters volleyball game at Spencerport. We watched a whole lot of Spongebob, and it was wonderful. I always enjoy hanging out with her. My friends Chris and Mike picked me up from there around 9 and we went to a mutual friends appartment. We hung out and played a few tournaments of old school Street Fighter on Sega. Everyone was playing cards as I just relaxed and watched, for I don't really enjoy card games. Nor am I good at them. A little while later we walked to Texas Hots on Monroe Ave, and indulged in some good dinner plates. We hardly got any sleep, but oh well. Chris brought me back home thismorning, and we got some McDonalds breakfast, which needless to say was good. I'm hoping we'll be able to hang out again next weekend. I talked to Betsy for a while before I had to be to work at 3. Work started off pretty busy, but turned to bordom quite fast. I get time and a half on Sundays though, which is the hot shit. I don't work again until Thursday, which I don't really mind. Tomorrow I'm going to ride the cool bus home with Betsy and hang out until my mom gets out of work. Should be fuuunnn. I guess I should be getting to bed. Goodnight. <333 post comment

[10 Dec 2004|10:50pm] [ mood | Mellow ] [ music | Pinback ] Tonight's been sort of fun. I went to the varsity basketball game with Mike Catalano. I wanted to hang out with Betsy...but it was too late. We would've been falling asleep on her couch right now, I'm sure. <3 I'm really tired, but I don't have the strength to haul myself up to my room. I'm sort of hungy too. Maybe I'll make some PB&J. I hope I'm doing well in school. Failing is not an option right now. I still haven't taken my SAT's. I still haven't decided what I'm going to do once high school is over with. I want to go see my brother. I want Betsy to come with me. Her parents would never allow it though...I'm sure. My dream is to go to Northeastern University and major in psychology. I will get my degree, and find work as a substance abuse councelor. Something about helping people through their pains and struggles has always interested me. If the whole making it to Northeastern falls through...well...I don't really have a backup plan. :/ I need to go snowboarding. My mom signed me up for ski club...in Spencerport. It should be fun. I just want to go by myself right now though so I can get some thoughts out of my head. Snowboarding does that really well for some reason. I love it. If I could do it for the rest of my life and get paid for it, I would be the happiest person this would has ever seen. Bleh...I don't know. A lot is going through my head. I'll continue to write, because right now it's feeling pretty helpful. Tomorrow I took off of work so I could go to my sisters volleyball game in the morning. I'm so supportive. We'll see what happens after the that. <3 I guess I oughta get some sleep soon. Goodnight. <3 a lot post comment

[06 Dec 2004|02:08pm] [ music | Built To Spill ] Mondays. Usually they're slow moving and tiring for me, but for some reason the schoolday wasn't so bad today. First block I had gym and got to go bowling. Although I'm awful at bowling, it's always fun. Second block I had studio art, and got started on my self portrate. Drawing yourself isn't all that easy, but I like a difficult task every once in a while. Lunch and homebase are always uneventful, but I like the short break inbetween classes. Third block I had PIG, and watched people present their Class Improvement projects. Some of them were throught provoking, which is nice. I hate watching people present projects that they didn't really try to hard at end up doing half assed jobs. I'm pretty bored right now. Hopefully I'll find something to do, seeing as though I don't have work today. My sister came home early from school today. I feel sort of bad for her, because she's had the flu for a few days now. She insists on going to school so that she'll be able to go to vollyball practice and be able to play in her games. It's good to see that she's honestly dedicated to the sport, or anything for that matter. I'm really anticipating Christmas. Hopefully I'll be able to get gifts for a couple people. Me and Betsy are trucking along pretty nicely. We don't really have that title of boyfriend/girlfriend persay, but I'm kind of liking it that way. Strings suck. I've been in such a better mood because of what's come about, which is good. Hmm. That's all for now. Bye! post comment

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